二十一

[revengeisalie]

[private || toughts || offscreen]

OH THAT --

OF ALL THE --

I can't believe it. Can'tbelieveitcan'tbelieveitcan'tbelieveit. I can't grasp what happened to me --

And it's something that just happened. Makes one wonder, if it'll ever truly sink in. I think I'll cry then. As if I haven't cried enough.

To be the wife of... of that man. He who killed them. He who condoned mother's rape.

I'm not amused, no, not amused, ahahaha, but LIKE THE CITY CARES. Or the deities. Or fate. Or whatever. Like I fucking care - no wait, I do. I'd really like a scapegoat right now. It's tempting, to blame him, jerk that he is, but I know he had as little to do with it as I did.

A shame, really.

T-to k-k -- and to hold -- bah. Even the words are disgusting to think.

But the sheer, sweet irony! Of something that has not been, never was, never ever will be. If that is the solution to peace - hah. I can't bring myself to actually wish for it, isn't that the most pathetic thing?

I feel I should, somehow, and yet... no. Nonononono.

Manji.

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Funny, isn't it? How it isn't until something affects you deeply and personally that you truly realize its horror. Thank you kindly, City. That was a lesson for life. If I underestimated you before - well. I'm not going to do that any longer.

Moving on. Does the police keep an eye on types like this? It would be a relief to know.

Thank you, Rosella, for calling the communicator's writing function to my attention. As can be seen, I have practiced diligently. It recognizes most of what I'm writing on the first attempt. I think I'll use that from now on - everyone must be so sick of hearing my voice by now.

Youko, or Ryōga-kun, how about some training? I could use that.

(OOC: Following this and that. Flatmates may have noticed her coming home around midnight in a very gloomy mood. Spent some time locked in the bathroom, swearing, crying and retching. Link is IC. And yep, this entry is written. The time of eternal voice posting is over.)

Comments

[nojerksplz.livejournal.com]

Rin-san, are you all right?

[revengeisalie.livejournal.com]

I've been better, but I'll be fine.

[nojerksplz.livejournal.com]

Please tell me if you need anything.

And - if Ryoga-kun and Youko-san aren't available, of course - I'd be happy to train with you.

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

I'm hardly sick of hearing your voice, Asano, but I'm glad you're having luck with the writing!

[revengeisalie.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

You can call me Rin, by the way.

[snapofmyfingers.livejournal.com]

He She? We keep an eye out for anything, and that would be something.

[revengeisalie.livejournal.com]

Good. I'm sorry for doubting your abilities - it's just that one sometimes needs reassurance.

[butyourmajesty.livejournal.com]

Welcome back?

[revengeisalie.livejournal.com]

Ah, thank you, Keiki-san. I'm sorry for getting impatient at you yesterday.

SHE's AVOIDING HIM

[reginagloriae]

Keik-

[child-radical.livejournal.com]

Rin?

[revengeisalie.livejournal.com]

Huey-kun? Don't worry. I'll be fine.

[mypace-musume.livejournal.com]

Rin... you okay?


Still got that appointment with the therapist, if you're willing to go.

[revengeisalie.livejournal.com]

I'm going to be fine.

Hah... how wise of you. But I don't think that's needed.

1/3

[reginagloriae]

It gave me a lot to think about, Rin. But I can't remember my "parents", their faces and voices faded like a burned photograph. I know that they loved me and wanted me.

[reginagloriae]

Today... I'm sorry, but I'm locked up in the kitchen. To make something for Keiki because I am so sorry.

private;

[reginagloriae]

Sooo.

[onlyteasing.livejournal.com]

I doubt it. He's been running loose for several months now.

[revengeisalie.livejournal.com]

He has? The good sir up there said they were, in fact, keeping an eye on him.

[ann-withane.livejournal.com]

Are you and Mr. Anotsu fighting?

[revengeisalie.livejournal.com]

Anne-chan... look, everything I said yesterday? Is untrue. I was cursed.

[kirinofen.livejournal.com]

So now you're normal again, right?

....

This place is starting to give me a headache.

[revengeisalie.livejournal.com]

Not just you, Rokuta-kun. Not just you.

[somekindofsin.livejournal.com]

The curse was difficult, then? Some of them are rather... difficult to put out of mind, even after midnight.

[revengeisalie.livejournal.com]

Yes. This would be one of those cases.